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11 May 2012 @ 05:17 pm
Talking's wrong?  
I met up with some friends not too long back,
And an acquaintance I met for the first time that night asked me - "Don't you feel you being so sociable might be both a blessing and a curse? I mean, wouldn't your future partner find it hard to trust you?"

Say wha?

Listen,

Just because someone is sociable,
it doesn't mean they're easy.
Talking to people, getting to know people,
has nothing to do with values they hold true to themselves.
Sure, you can talk to someone.
Doesn't mean you can't set limits for yourself.

What's your definition of sociable?
Cause that's where you can see if there might be a problem, or not.

If someone's to fault me for being able to talk to others,
and wanting to know the stories of others...

I doubt they'd be someone I'd be sharing the same table with, over beers.


Just a thought.

I'm off.

 
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02 May 2012 @ 03:09 pm
Because I've got time.  


So someone just asked if im afraid now ive graduated.
That I may not make as much money as I would like to someday.

I wouldn't say I'm unafraid...
But I'm kinda more excited than frightened.

Packing up a house that I've lived in for 13 years, I've found tons of knick knacks collected from different parts of my life,
and different parts of the world.
I've read letters and looked at photographs that are covered in dust, over the past couple of days.
My mom asked - What are you gonna do with all these things when you move to another country next year?

I dont know. Bury them? Bring them along? Doubt my luggage would fit them,
and considering I'd be living in a student house... yea, not a good idea.


But its strange, how all these little things are the reason I am who I am today.

My parents have come to terms with the fact that all 3 of their children will be in different parts of the world by next year.
They've come to terms with the fact that one of their daughters has chosen to live her life,
a day as it comes.
It's not what they set out for us years ago, but they've come to peace with these things.


I'm just excited to travel for a year.
And beyond excited to study again next year,
but in a place I know I can just... live.
They say your 20s are the craziest times of your life - they should be about right.


So, yes...
a little jittery about everything.
But what's life without some butterflies in the stomach ey? ;)

I'm off.
 
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01 April 2012 @ 12:55 am
Just to say...  
I'm thankful.


People still ask me what I thought about my trips over the end of the year.

"I loved. I laughed. I lived."


And i have absolutely no regrets :)


Like I said,
I do things to the extremes.
But, I've never had to look back and think that I wish I never did it.

Like how I'm looking forward to my summer trip.
I have no expectations... 
But I know when your heart is in the right place - be it to have fun, to meet new people, to experience new cultures-
you will :)





Summer!!

Thought you were so far away,
but indeed you aren't! 
And I can't wait - 
but in the meantime,
let's look at whats here shall we ;)



I'm off.
 
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07 March 2012 @ 02:15 am
shrugs.  
Funnily,
Now that's out of the way I feel this huge load off my shoulders.

Never been too good at doing these kind of things,
and once that goes down... you kinda forget that squeezing a soap too hard has two very bad consequences.
One - the soap gets completely disfigured.
Two - the soap slips out of your hand.


I actually feel like things finally make sense. 
Things are much better this way.

And I can't wait for summer,
to spend it with 3 good company and probably More that will be added along the way.
Simple as that.
Now THAT is something I can look forward to.
Without thinking too much about anything at all. 

Plus, the carnage that will go down this saturday for the full moon party
It's gonna be one hell of a night/morning.
Good to take a break from ze' books once in a while.

Cant wait!

I'm off.
 
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05 March 2012 @ 03:16 am
a gemini. Or just a Dora.  
I never knew how to settle for in betweens.

Its either I did something or I didn't.

If you told me to choose between the red pill and the blue one...

I'd grab them both out of your hands.
And make purple rainbows.

I'm off.
 
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29 February 2012 @ 01:14 am
With silver bells and cockle shells. And pretty maids all in a row.  
Yes I'm an arts student, about to become an arts graduate.
Yes I have beliefs that you find alien, and that you cannot come to terms with.

But no, that does not mean that I do not want some things that you do too.

Someday I would like to have a stable job, 
that allows me to do what I love,
and Pays me well.
I would love to work with and in an art museum someday.
Yes, someday I would love to own that Audi or BMW car, with an awesome sound system fixed into it.
Yes, someday I would love to shop for people I love and myself without thinking about how much it costs me.
I would love to treat myself and the people I love to luxurious fine dining, and go on trips to places some people only dream about.
I would like to own a lovely, big house - where I can sit outside and have a nice glass of cognac on the rocks,
while reading a book.

I dont need enough to live, but enough to survive for now.
But I dream of these things - that I will hopefully own after hard work finally pays off.


Someday.

I'm off.
 
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22 February 2012 @ 08:56 pm
(no subject)  


"Silence, is the best way to tell someone they did you wrong."

I'm off.
 
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22 February 2012 @ 02:12 am
The hell is wrong with you?  
Exam weeks always make me wanna rip my hair off my scalp.
I havent slept in days,
my immune system is Shit,
and i'm feeling sorry for myself.


"I hold on, because I cant let go."


And then, it hit me last night.
Shut the fuck up Dora.
You're complaining about the fact that you've been given a chance to study something you love,
the fact that you're given a chance at education,
the fact that you have a chance to have a better life in the future.

And then it makes me go, "The hell is wrong with me?"



The hell is wrong with me.


I'm off.
 
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15 February 2012 @ 05:29 am
(no subject)  
You only try so hard.


Eventually, 
if its not your battle to fight,
you need to walk away.


You can believe for twom, but honey... that's really not gonna be enough.


Let's focus on what's right here,
right now.



And try not to get bitter.

All for a reason.

I'm off.
 
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04 February 2012 @ 09:40 pm
stuck a fork to the mac.  

I can't go on living this way
I can't go back the way I came
Chained to this fear
That I will never find the way
to heal my soul
And I will wander until the end of the time


It is the inconvenient truth that whatever and whoever your first love was,
will continue to affect your choices in the future.
Be it how you act, how you handle a situation, or (the bad side of it) how you keep anticipating for something wrong to happen.



Bad things happen, for a reason.
Most of the time at least.

Bad things happen,
so you can truly appreciate when something good happens.
And that's a general fact, be it when it comes to friendships, your studies, your family, your financial situations... whatever.


It is also the inconvenient truth that your past will always linger at the back of your head.

Its just a matter of whether or not you're willing to learn from it.
Or let it dictate who you are today, and eventually... who you will be tomorrow.


So breathe. Just breathe.
And believe in the good - and have a beer while you're at it. Always helps ;)

I'm off.
 
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